This is what I said in private, on my knees, after my son told me he is gay.
Today, two years after he told me, I say - "Thank you God, I was chosen."
It was not an easy journey, but it was a journey that I took on and in the process, I learned about myself, my son and the creation of God.
It was a journey I took on with the help of Dr. Collin, my computer and a lot of flowers with bright colours and the ever changing cycle of new life, and new hope.
I had to work through the "me" that I thought I was: the best mother a child could have to the "me" I became with guilt about my parenting skills and the notion that my child possibly was molested as a 11 year old boy.
I had to work through my relationship with my husband, I told him only a year after I have heard that my son is gay about the gayness.
To help me on this peregrination towards understanding and acceptance I wrote a book called: "Dr. Collin......my son is gay." Every thought, every fear I felt, I spoke about and I wrote it down. Dr. Collin was non-judge mental and I, the "me" I was, died. I had to die in order for my son to live. All my preconceived ideas and ideals about my son had to die so that new realities could surface.
Currently I am in the pre-sale phase of my book; the book is available at Strategic Book Publishers on the following website created for me by the Publishers. The book can be purchased from the site but it will only be available after I have sold the first 100 books.
I do believe I can help any parent, sibling or gay/lesbian child through this period of self-acceptance. My book definitely explores all the issues concerning: parenting involvement; sibling acceptance; religion and the emotional factor of self-acceptance.
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